Raquel English

Swimming In The Currents

Good morning Mermaid Junkies,

How are you? I’m so excited! I’m actually married again, but this time to my soul mate.

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The big day was Friday of last week. It’s quite a special day already, as it’s my parents anniversary too. We thought the date would be a gentle, yet beautiful reminder of how special our soul mate union has been.

I plan on telling you the whole story, I promise. It’s the most beautifully romantic story ever. It will most definitely have to be a series, though.

Okay, so back to why I’m writing this blog post and video. I had an eventful situation happen over the weekend, and it caused me to go back into the resentment momentum.

After thinking about it long and hard, with a crap load of meditation and some refocusing, I was able to decipher why I was upset. My conclusion is that I must still be filtering through a bit more of the divorce residue from built up anger and resentment towards Mitch. I thought it was pretty much gone, however the contrast is telling me otherwise. I do have to say also, that It’s pretty normal for most to just call it what it is, and blame the other person for everything. I know for myself, though, my journey is a personal transformational tale about how we move through hate, anger, and resentment to find our own inner peace. My job is to focus back into alignment and to work through all the contrast to continually rediscover my true self and to have self-love.

I must say, I do love having the contrast because it allows me to see where my root emotions are. Many of us do this instead of changing a root emotion we feel, we immediately jump into action. I use to do this through going ballistic (anger and breaking stuff while screaming my head off) had always been my mode of dealing with my pain. Sometimes going to the store and dropping a few hundred dollars on shit that I didn’t need was a good method I used to use too. It’s so much easier to change the root emotion instead of the other way around. Everybody has a different method of action. Some like to drink, get drunk, take pills, do drugs, sleep around, overwork, You name it, we’ve all done one or the other; or hell, a little of each one.

I’m going to share a Zen story about living in the present moment. How often we carry around past hurts, holding onto resentments when the only person we are really hurting is ourselves.

We all go through times in life when other say things or behave in a way that is hurtful towards us. We can choose to ruminate over past actions or events, but it will ultimately weigh us down and zap our energy. Instead, we can choose to let go of what no longer serves us anymore and concentrate on the present moment. Until we each individually find that level of peace and happiness in our present circumstances of our lives, we will never be content, because ‘NOW’ is all we ever really have.

Okay, so here’s the story; courtesy of my dearest friend Cindi. She said that I could share it.

A senior monk and a junior monk were traveling together. At one point, they came to a river with a strong current. As the monks were preparing to cross the river, they saw a very young and beautiful woman also attempting to cross. The young woman asked if they could help her to cross to the other side.

The two monks glanced at one another because they had taken vows not to touch a woman.

Then, without a word, the older monk picked up the woman, carried her across the river, placed her gently on the other side , and carried on his journey.

The younger monk couldn’t believe what had just happened. After rejoining his companion, he was speechless, and an hour had passed without a word between them.

Two more hours passed, then three, finally the younger monk could not contain himself any longer, and blurted out “As monks, we are not permitted a woman, how could you then carry that woman on your shoulders?”

The older monk looked at him and replied, ” Brother, I set her down on the other side of the river, why are you still carrying her?”

I loved this analogy. I mean honestly how many times do we do this, and not even realize that were doing it.

I hope your day is a lovely one, and know that i love and adore you each. Thanks for swimming by.

Yours til my next swim, Rock

raquelsig

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